I don’t understand. I don’t understand anything that happened. And the worst part is, I don’t think I’ll ever know. You know very well. You knew how hard it was for me to let anyone in. We were going out for a month before I finally let my guards down. Remember, you told me I deserved more. That you’d never treat me badly. I was broken then, and I’m even more broken now. But how could you do it. how could you be so heartless. I did everything for you. I hope you haven’t forgotten. That first day I let go of all my fears just to help you. So many nights I stayed up late doing your assignments when you said you couldn’t do them. I loved you. And still you couldn’t stop yourself. You didn’t need to lie to me. I would’ve forgiven you for anything. But going out with him before ending it with me. And hiding it for so long. I can’t forgive you for that. which to me is the most heartbreaking thing. Because I would’ve walked to the end of the universe and back just to try and make things work. You let me walk, you let me try, even when you were with someone else. I can’t forgive you for continuously lying to me. Because I can’t ever trust you again. And that breaks me up inside. I keep imagining bumping into you somewhere. I imagine how I’d react and what I’d do. I keep a smile on my face when I’m going to uni or doing anything in the city. Just in case I bump into you or him.
I know you’re with him just because he’s there for you and you can flirt with whoever you want and he won’t know. I know its because he will believe every lie that you say. But enough’s enough for me. I’m not angry. But I’m frustrated you couldn’t tell me the truth. Even now, you haven’t admitted it. You haven’t admitted anything. And you haven’t said sorry. You’ve blamed me for everything that happened. But none of it was my fault. And yes its true that I’m broken. And its true these scars will probably never fully heal. But none of that changes the fact that I’m so much better without you.
So I may still look around me when I’m walking around uni, I may still think about you. I may still smile and say hello when I see you. But I won’t regret anything that I’ve done. And I won’t forget anything that’s ever happened, the good and the bad. But there is no way I’m going to let someone like you enter my life again. So here’s to you fucking things up. Because you’re a mistake I won’t ever make again.
If you rape someone, it doesn’t matter that you’re only 16.
If you rape someone, it doesn’t matter that you cry like a child in court.
If you rape someone, it doesn’t matter that you had a promising future.
if you rape someone, it doesn’t matter that your life is destroyed.
If you rape someone, it should haunt you for the rest of your life.
You raped someone.
You deserve every ounce of justice we can place upon you in court of law.